I have always been very Pro-Epidural. I thought of it as a magical button that makes pain disappear and babies appear. I assumed the only reason a woman would do a natural birth was so people thought she was hardcore. I never once considered any negatives to an epidural. In the second week of our birthing class they went over pain meds used during the birthing process and it turns out an Epidural is a drug, not a magic spell.
The more I have learned about the Epidural, the more freaked out I am by it.
First off, the needle is huge! I have a huge phobia of having needles in my body and not being allowed to move while the needle is being used. Considering I will be having contractions I think staying still will be extra challenging and extra scary.
Second, it isn't just your lady parts that go numb with the epidural. You can't feel your legs. I know I want really be wanting to running around towards the end of the labor, but the fact that I won't be able to support my own body weight freaks me out.
Third, and probably most importantly, the epidural can make the baby sleepy after delivery. I never even considered that the drug could impact the baby. I know it may not seem like a big deal to have a sleeping baby, in fact, it may be a lot of new moms dreams. However, it is incredibly important to me to be an all star breast feeder and I've been told that breast feeding immediately after birth adds greatly to the success. A sleepy baby will not be a hungry baby.
So the one thing I thought I was positive about in the birthing process, is now one of the things I am least sure about.
I'm not putting pressure on myself to have a natural birth. I have never given birth, so I know that I have no concept of the pain, but I also know in recent years I have surprised myself with what my body can accomplish- for example completing a half marathon with NO training. So if when the day comes and the pain is too much, I will get the epidural, but I want to try to go the natural route. Of course, I am going to do a little more training for this than I did my half marathon. I already have started doing more prenatal yoga and I will start a hypnobirthing class next month. Time will only tell if the preparation pays off.